I had a break up a few months back..after an year long relationship .I thought I shall soon get over it, but even after 5 months ,I still find myself brooding over it. I still remember everything and every incident clearly even after all my efforts to forget. Even after such a long time I find myself sad and empty inside.I still hope that everything will soon be as it was earlier. I tried a lotto motivate myself,by thinking about my ambitions. But I have slowly begun to realize that is probably depression .And I think that this is because I have no one to share my feelings with. I feel that perhaps an emotional support can be best helpful for a situation such as mine.
I used to be a low confident girl before the relationship. It improved me froman introvert. And now that it has ended,I find myself going backto the same state again. I read about what one can do to come out of such stress. One of the suggestions was to mingle with friends.I am not so free and open socially . I have quite a few close friends,but even their consolation seems a formality. Besides,I myself do not like it to admit that the break up has left me so weak. I always had believed that I was very strong mentally. So it hasbeen difficult to realize that the stress and brooding is making me unresponsive to everything happening aroundme. And moreover,whenever I try to become normal with time,the past memories flash back. Initially, I thought it that thiswas normal,but astime passed and I am still in the same condition,made me think about depression. The main problem with me right now is that I can find no source of motivation. It seems that I am dragging my life. Whatever I am doing,I am not doing it for myself…
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